I don't get the anime goods obsession.

cluster: fiction appreciation

TLDR; I get ‘be nijika’ or ‘travel to the same city as the anime you like’ trend
but I don’t get ‘buy nijika goods’ or ‘buy genshin goods.’

but I cannot sh=tting others like “haha why you don’t use fictions for an inspiration for be the better version of yourself” since 70% of my anime obsession are came from creative jealousy, so I do doubt myself many times that am I really like anime?

• Incoherent and a little bit unpopular opinion.
• I don’t really understand why many people buy stuffs about fictions they liked (yet)
• when I obsessed to something
  • sometimes I want to understand that thing
  • sometimes I want to be like that thing, or gain the same affinity I admired from that thing
  • sometimes when the story is too good, I starts to jealous it’s creator to be able to generate those wonderful story from their mind, so I want to understand it’s backstage
  • I often get really jealous when I witness some weak characters can overcome hardship situations with something I don’t have, e.g. pull off some genius tricks under pressure, do talknojutsu with articulated though even in young age, high pain tolerant, etc.
• e.g.
  • I drink the same tea as a character I liked
  • I learn about computer to be as cool as some characters I admired.
  • I want to be at CERN to gain stein;gate characters’ aura.
  • I buy some tools my favourite characters use
  • I jealous misaka makoto to be able to learn 4-6 languages and know a lot about physics
  • the manga medalist inspired me to practice rollerblade and improve my art styles
• I seldom buy some anime goods expecting I gain something from it, but it doesn’t make me understand those characters more.
• I seldom get anime goods from theaters or events but I totally forget most of them afterward.
  • I cherish some of them because of memories on how I get them.
• other methods that make me feel (temporary) good
  • buy stuffs that make me think I’m becoming a better version of myself
  • do things that make me think I’m becoming a better version of myself
  • aim to be better person for the anime character that I like
  • draw something inspired by the medium I like
• I use the same philosophy to many things in life, but do I live the good way? I feel like in this recent years, I watch things just to spur up my creative jealousy, which I find it is not that healthy and made me detached from the mediums.

created on: Mon Nov 17 2025